So yeah- how's this for keeping the blog updated and expressing my feelings to make sure I don't get overwhelmed!!!
Yes busyness over took me and yet again I got back in to that monotomous life.
But I love how God keeps caring and keeps giving even when I'm just flitting through life!!
It's almost coming up to two years since Grandpa had the stroke- I look back and can't really fathom that its been that long. But then again I've grown up a lot in that time.
So what's happened in the 10 months since I last wrote anything?!?!
I did my first year exams and passed them! Further proof that God wants me at Cardiff University!!
I got a summer job (also planned perfectly for me by God) 5 minutes away from home, with an old work mate of mum's who had become a Christian months before I walked into her shop asking for a job!!
I started 2nd year with a house and learnt how much harder 2nd year is!!
The last semester was hard work-battlig with new situations, and busy with Uni work and Hall group stuff. Being on a new course and meeting the other Pharmers has been great and I've enjoyed leading hall group so much-I can't believe its almost time to pass it on to the next lot!! Getting to know my new housemate has been wonderful too.
But yeah at times its been quite lonely and just a bit harder than I expected- I thought I was an expert at Cardiff life since I'd done a year.
Details aren't important-as its all behind me now and I've determined to move on and not let the things that bothered me last term effect me anymore. I just want to say; God showed me He loved me in the loneliness-spoke into situations and whispered into the tears through me being prayed for by a friend.
And my Grandpa? Well this Christmas was better than the last one. He still has his times of feeling so down about it all-but he has said the words that he doesnt really want to go 'home'.
He's been having lots and lots of physiotherapy. He's started sessions with a great woman called Anja who is dating my mum's cousin. Anja is a physio who has neuroscience experience and specialises in stroke patients-working particularly with the arm. I really enjoyed chatting to her about 'geeky' brain stuff and hearing her theories on what she is going to work on with my grandpa. He know just needs to stay positive and keep trying. Progress has been made. Its still slow-he's still in the chair although Anja has got him up and waking little bits, he still can't do complete sentences and some days just lets us get on with the conversation. Its tough still and I hate being away from it all.
Christmas was lovely. Friends from all over the place joined us for the christmas break. Clement (who Simon worked with in Zambia) was with us for Christmas and it was lovely to meet the guy who Simon sees as a brother and hear Grandpa thanking him and encouraging him. Rebecca came from the US which was such a great time for me-as I've not seen her for almost 3 years but it was fantastic to be reunited and share life updates!!
Then back to Cardiff. Determined to make my house here more warm and lovely, struggling through with exams and back into a whirlwind life.
God is being faithful even when I'm not really. I'm determined to be spending more time with Him-because I know that my insecurities and struggles will reduce when I'm trusting Him fully and living in His light and promise and purpose. But of course I know all this but then end up rushing around burning the candle at both ends, crashing and burning ever so often, trying to be Miss in-control! :) But Jesus is in Control, i just have to take my little finger off the steering wheel!!
I'll try not to let it be another terribly long amount of time before I share something of God's goodness again!!
God bless and all that Jazz
xx
